Wednesday, 13 April 2011

Look at the stars

I wrote a little... something, not really sure what is it but it contains my favorite (current) James Blunt lyrics and thought I might as well post it.

"Look at the stars"

It was a beautiful night
but she knew what was coming
he was coming to get her
She has been through this before
She knows how self-destructive she is acting
but she has never denied him
She feels a presence in the room
he is here, she should run
but she freezes
he softly calls her name
the call in full of promises
promises that will never become reality
and she knows this, why doesn't she run?
Perhaps she enjoys the momentary bliss
his bliss inducing lies
Again he calls, louder now
she turns toward the voice and slowly
makes her way toward him
She feels his icy cold fingers run down her spine
maybe next time she'll find the strength to run

"Look at that stars. fall. down.
and wonder where did I go wrong"

Friday, 4 March 2011

When You're 15

What Taylor Swift declares is true "When you're 15 and somebody tells you they love you you're gunna believe them". The sad truth is that this person you love at 15 will more then likely not be with you forever. I met someone I was sure I was going to marry when I was 15. It was kind of like the situation in Dear John all the feelings were there but sadly we were in the wrong time and place. He was older then me and I believe I was mentally older then a lot of girls my age so its not like we were two little kids in love, it felt very real and I still love him. I think you never forget the person you first love, and I believe if you truly love a person you will never stop, your love for them just evolves.

Life would be too simple if you got to stay with the first person you fall in love with. Being a girl I'm not sure of, and probably will never know, the inner workings of the male mind but I think everyone at one point in their life knows the hollow feeling in your chest that is a broken heart. Its a part of growing up and I don't think its something that I will ever be able to avoid, but I can learn how to cope, I HAVE to learn how to cope if I am going to continue to be in a relationship of any kind.

This life is not perfect, it will never be so don't expect it to be. It is too easy to get caught up in depression, we have to find our own joys in this world. I still wish I was with the person I fell in love with when I was 15 but I won't let that prevent me from believing that there is someone out there who is right for me and I'll be with for the rest of my days.

"I pray that something picks me up and sets me down in your warm arms" (Snow Patrol)